hello again… no one.
Ive been gone (for this blog) for more than a month now. I was thinking of making my own webserver at home as I have installed a linux pc at home. I was having this idea that I needed to do some “computer” project as to prepare me for the real life AKA a job.
Setting up the linux box was not easy, but it was easier than I have expected. I tried fedora first but it was running slow maybe because of the low specs. Then I tried debian with a minimum install. With that minimum install I still had to install gnome. That was pretty easy because of the apt-get of debian.
Expanding my idea of a website on my own, I wanted to make a blog using flash. I learned flash for a few days, experimented with a few .flas and as. But I soon learned that integrating a blog into flash was really not easy. There are very few options how to do it and even succesfully doing it had its problems. The only flash blog I have seen was http://www.ssdesigninteractive.com/ssdesign/?page_id=84 but its currently down and I havent seen it. The author of that site made a flash front end available at sourcefourge. http://sourceforge.net/projects/flash-blog/
So… I think I will just be using wordpress but not the web based wordpress but I will be installing wordpress on that new linux box then work my way from there. Then I would just add a flash home page to the site linking to my blog and maybe other stuff. I think this would be better because the only reason I wanted to do this was for me to learn more computer “stuff” and doing this would allow me to work on html, css, flash, php, mysql, and other things instead of just focusing more on flash.
Oh well. To sum it all up, I’m tired of doing nothing in my life and I guess this is a good start for a better me. I hope.
NoNoNO!
Ang salitang mahirap ituro sa bata. NO! NO! NO!!!!!
Mahirap sumobra sa kailangan.
Malulunod sa kinabukasan.
Mahirap pumantay ang itim at puti.
Kapag ang kalaban mo ay ang sarili.
Ok lang at may panahon pa.
Umahon sa maling sistema.
~tanga
Are We Free?
Are we free? to choose? to live our life the way “we” want it to be?
Causality.
Everything has a cause. Everything we do has a cause. When we choose, our choices our bound by the intricate details of causes. I am writing this because I have been thinking about this topic for awhile because I have watched Matrix again and I have watched Matrix again because I saw a torrent of it and I saw a torrent of it because I was bored and wanted to look for a movie because… The sentence of life is an endless because.
Are we but dominoes falling as the former falls into us? I have been thinking of this for almost a week now and I really cant find any answer but the obvious one – ‘yes we are trapped in an illusion of freewill’.
Another cause of me writing this is to have closure so that I could once forget it and live my life without thinking of the intricate cause and effects that are happening. The only good effect to think of causality is to somehow prove God’s existence.
~towastesecondsoftimeortobeacauseforsomethingunknown
incubus!
Light Grenades Album- November 28, 2006
1st Single : “Anna Molly”
WINMEDLOW WINMEDHIGH REAL QT
Piso-Pisong Pagibig
Naaalala mo pa ba ng una tayong nagkakilala? Nakita kitang kasama mo mga kaibigan ko. Pinakilala ka nila sakin ngunit nahihiya pako. Di nagtagal nakilala narin kita dahil narin sa iyong pagpipilit. Naging masaya ako sayo. Sinasamahan moko kahit saan man ako naroroon. Lagi ka nandyan tuwing mga masasaya kong sandali at pati na ang mga sandaling akoy nagdudusa. Ikaw ang aking naging lakas sa mga problema. Ikaw ang naging sandalan kung saan akoy napapahinga. Tuwing tayoy naghahalikan lahat ng problema ay nalilimutan. Tuwing nararamdaman ko ang iyong init ng hininga sa aking mga labi, humihinahon ang aking isip. Kaw ang aking naging malapit na kaibigan. Sinabi kong pagtatanggol kita kahit ano pa ang mangyari. Ayaw nila sayo pero di ko hinayaan mawala ka.
Pero ngayon, pano ngayon? Nalaman ko na ang iyong tunay na pakay. Mangloloko ka. Papatayin mo ko sa iyong panggagago. Mga sinungaling mong sarap na akala mo maganda na lahat pero yun pala sinasaksak ka na sa likod. Oo nandyan ka palagi, pero nandyan ka ba nung sinakal mo ko at akoy muntik ng mamatay? Mahirap magmahal kapag hinde ka pala mahal. Ginamit mo lng ako para sa ano? sa piso pisong pagibig? Nasayang lang lahat ng ginastos ko sayo. Hinde ka pala karapatdapat mabuhay kasama ako. Sinabi ko na ito lahat dati at alam kong pabalik balik ako sayo. Wala ako magawa, mahal kita, pero enough is enough, ika nga nila. Sana lang mawala narin ang aking pisopisong pagibig para sayo at akoy maging malaya na.
Ayoko na. Ayoko na yosi.
~jupi
hahaha ang drama.
dream
i cant sleep
i dream
i dream of paradise
ocean wide blue waters
palm trees to shade
soothing sand
still i cant sleep
then i realize
you are my paradise
without you i cant smile
if i die before you
im sure to go to hell
coz there wont be no heaven
ifyouseekaye
if you have to fucking do something…you just have to fucking do it…no more fucking thinking…no more fucking worrying…no more fucking up…no more fucked up what…just fucking do it…no more fucking questions…no more fucking posting on fucking blogs…just fucking do it…
ok ill fucking do it.
tinted black window.
tinted black window
i cannot see it all
darkness, the demons & shadows
creeps above my wall
higher & higher they come
darker & darker the sun
tinted black window
i know it will be my fall
unknown will be my tomorrow
but still ill take heed the call
higher & higher the goal
deeper & deeper I go
I dont care bout you!
I dont care bout me!
when I look through this window
I’ll just cry and bleed…
